Smile Princess is...nervous?

OK SO....IDK. TOMORROW IS MY B-DAY N I AM NERVOUS. THAT'S A FIRST. I GUESS IT IS BECAUSE I AM HAVING MY PARTY TOMORROW N IT HAS TO BE GREAT. DIVA S HAING HER PARTY IN TWO WEEKS N MYN HAS TO BE SO MUCH BETTER THAN HERS. I AM THE PARTY GIRL I AM THE WILD AND CRAZY ONE. I CANNOT N WILL NOT GET BEATEN BY SOME LIL KID. OK SHE'S OLDER BUT SHE IS NOT AS WISE AND EXPERIENCED AS ME. GAH! SO I GUESS MY SISTER IS NEVER GOING ONLINE ANYMORE SO THIS IS ALL ABOUT ME. HOW FUNNY. HAHAH. SO TOMORROW HAS TO BE TYT. I HAVE TO LOOK AWESOME AND I HAVE TO HAVE THE BEST FOOD AND MUSIC AND I DONT CARE ABOUT NETHING ELSE BUT THAT. HMMM...I AM FEELING BETTER THAN BEFORE. LAST WEEK I WAS JUST REALLY PISSED OF AT MY FAMILY. NOW IT HAS GOTTEN BETTER. I AM DOING BETTER. I AM LESS ANGRY AND I DONT THINK I WILL BE THROWING TOO MANY TEMPER TANTRUMS ANYTIME SOON.
I ACUTALLY HAD A REALLY BAD WEEK. WELL I ENDED THE WEEK OFF BAD. I WAS HONESTLY READY TO KICK SUM1'S ASS. THIS BITCH NAMED JONAH FROM MY SKOOL WAS TALKIN SHIT ABOUT ME THREATENING HER WHEN I DIDN'T AND HER PARENTS TALKED TO MY UNCLE ABOUT JONAH NOT WANTING TO GO TO SKOOL CUZ SHE WAS SCARED BUT I HAD JUS SEEN HER AT SKOOL THAT DAY. OH MY GOSH!!! I WAS CURSING IN EVERY LANGUAGE I KNEW AND I WAS READY TO KILL SOMEONE. I HATE HER! HER AND HER STUPID FRIENDS ARE ALL PAINS IN MY ASS. IF SHE SHOWS UP AT MY PARTY I WILL SHOVE HER FACE IN THE DIRT! GRRR!!!
OK SO I GET ANGRY REALLLY FAST. TODAY I GOT BAD NEWS. I DIDN'T PASS ANY OF MY AP EXAMS. I GOT 2 1S AND 2 2S AND I WAS SAD. I THOUGHT I DID REALLY GOOD BUT GO FIGURE. I DIDN'T. I WILL DO BETTER NEXT YEAR. SO TOMORROW IS THE BIG DAY. I WILL BE 17. IT IS CRAZY HOW MUCH TIME HAS PASSED IN THIS HOUSE. IT FEELS JUST LIKE YESTERDAY I WAS TURNING 11 IN THIS HOUSE N NOW I AM 17, FACING SENIOR YEAR N COLLEGE STUFF AND ALLL THAT STRESSFUL CRAP. TIME FLIES I GUESS. WELL I REALLY HAVE TO DEAL WITH CLEANING THE HOUSE RIGHT NOW. I WILL SO WRITE OUT ALL THE PARTY DETAILS LATER!

I NEVER LET THE ACTIONS OF ANOTHER MAKE OR BRAKE AND AND I NEVER LET A SINGLE PERSON SHAKE ME. BECAUSE HONESTLY...I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHO HATES ME!

Smile Princess is an Angry Princess....

Ok so i hate my family. all they do is find everything wrong with me. ako na lng ng ako ang may kasalanan. it's my b-day you know. and all they do is find everything that is wrong with me and my friends. at least i'm not like my stupid cousins who smoke and drink and do other dumb butt ideas. I go to the movies and parties and come home everday and i dnt rebel. i keep up the best grades possible and i do my best in everything i do. BUT IT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!! it's just not fair. what more can i dot. i am at the top of my class. i am planning on going to a really good school. i am planning on making my family's life really easy after i graduate. but now i dont feel like it. bahala cla. they can't appreciate how much hard work i am doing. they say it is for me but it is for THEM! i am so pissed off. I HATE MY FAMILY!!!!!

Smile Princess- 7/4/08

OK SO THERE IS NOT MUCH TO DO THIS LATE AT NIGHT RIGHT!!! MY ICE PRINCE AND HIS HOMEY TANKAD JUS LEFT MY HOUSE A WHILE AGO N OF COURSE WE WERE JUST KICKIG IT. GAH!!!! IT IS SO MUCH FUN TO KICK IT WITH ICE PERO ANG HIRAP RIN. MAHAL KO SHA EH. FUNNY RIGHT. I HAVE TO BE HIS FRIEND KAHIT MAHAL KO SHA. MAHIRAP. I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO SO MANY SAD SONGS THAT IT IS FINALLY GETTING TO ME. I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ICE AND MY PARTY ALL AT ONCE. MY PARTY IS NEXT WEEK AND IT IS CRAZY!!! I AM GOING TO BE 17. GRRNESS!!! I AM GETTING OLD. NAALALA KO NA KAILANGAN KO PAPALA GAWIN UNG SENIOR PROJECT KO BEFOR SUMMER SKOOL ENDS. 3 WEEKS!!! WELL I WANT TO GET MY HOURS DONE BY THEN. THERE IS SO MUCH TO BE DONE. I THINK MY PROJECT WILL BE "THE EFFECTS OF DRUGS ON THE MENTAL, PHYSICAL AND SOCIAL ASPECTS OF PEOPLE." FOR COMMUNITY SERVICE I WILL GO AND INTERVIEW DOCTORS AND PSYCHIATRISTS ON THEIR OPINONS OF THE EFFECTS OF DRUGS AND I WILL TALK TO A FEW PEOPLE WHO I KNOW HAVE AND ADDICTION TO ALCOHOL AND SMOKING BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW ANYONE THAT DOES DRUGS. HAHAH. I THINK THIS WILL BE A VERY FUN PROJECT FOR ME. THE 8 PAGE ESSAY IS NOT FUN THOUGH. OH AND FIGURING OUT HOW TO FINISH THE REST OF MY HOURS. I CAN GO TO MIDDLE SCHOOLS AND INFORM THEM OF WHAT I HAVE FOUND OUT. I CAN ALSO GO TO THE MOVIES AND MALL AND BOOK STORE AND PASS OUT INFORMATIONAL SHEETS. CRAZY AND I CAN DO THAT TOGETHER.
OK SO I AM IN A SAD MOOD BECAUSE OF ICE SO I AM GOING TO POST SOME QUOTES THAT I JUST LIKE. OH AND HAVE YOU NOTICED THAT MY SISTER DOESN'T POST ANYTHING ANYMORE!!! GRRRNESSS!!!

QUOTES:
~Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go
~Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together
~You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.
~Out of all the things i knew,i still trusted you
~True love is when you shed a tear and still want him it's when he ignores you and you still love him it's when he loves another girl but you still smaile and say im happy for you when all you really do is cry.. and cry..
~It hurts so much to love you the way i do, and then look at you and realize how much you don't care...
~Its hard to wait around for somethng that you know might never happen but it's even harder to give up especially when it's everything you ever wanted
~I have to be CONCEITED,I got a talent of getting hurt...
~A blue heart is sad a gray heart is mada red heart is taken or already in lovebut my heart is blue and graysad because the guy i love isn't taking hints. but i'm mad because i'm holing myself back from everything i want!
~When no ones around to see her pain, she breaks down. They say she's so strong, but they've never seen her cry. She's got everyone fooled.
~So when i see him, i'm gonna put on my best fake smile and tell him i'm happy for him, But as soon as he says bye and turns away, i'm not gonna fight the tears, i'm gonna let them fall
~My entire life has been a tragic play. There's been some romance, some comedy, but no matter how many good things might happen, I will always end up right back where I started. Back at the bottom, discouraged, regretful, alone
~Where's my, "Happily ever after," ??
~Oh, I shouldn’t care or wonder where and how you are. But I can’t hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I’m fighting back emotions that I’ve never fought before, ‘cause I’m not supposed to love you anymore.
~They say when you’re alone it’s better because nobody knows you. When no one’s your friend, it’s better because nobody leaves you. But I hear voices and I see colors. And I wish I didn’t feel anything. Then it might be easy for me, like it is for you
~one day, your prince will come. mine? oh, he just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions
~You aren't born tough. You get that way when there's no one there to dry your tears
~"Take it all off". He said. "What, my clothes?" "No, your make-up. Your mask"
~Eventually, one of two things will happen. He'll finally realize you were worth it, or you'll finally realize he wasnt
~They say, "What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger." Well maybe some of us are just too sick and tired of being so damn strong
~She doesnt want to explain what she feels because she doesnt exactly know. Half of her loves him, but the other half of her wants to let him go.
~Maybe i'm not supposed to get over him. I mean, look how many times i've tried.
~as i remember all the hurtful things he's said to me, i can't stand taking it all over again. I had to give up
~She looks into his eyes and asks herself, "How am i going to get over this one?"
~It is impossible for me to remember a time when you were not a part of me
~When other little girls wanted to be ballet dancers, i kind of wanted to be a vampire
~Forget Stacey's Mom... Me & my girls got it goin on!
~& there's a reason why some people go down in history and others are forgotten. Because everyone has a dream. The people we remember are th eones who achieved theirs
~She smiles like everyone expects her to. She's living up to the expectation of never letting anything get to her. But something's wrong with her smile today. Congratulations ICE, you got to her
~I dont want someone constantly saying i'm beautiful, or hot, or sexy. I want someone who will fight with me; tell me he hates me; and act like he's crying just so i will kiss him. I want someone eho will make fun of me. Do things with him, and his friends, and not always do everything i say. I dont want the "Perfect Guy" to every other girl. I want my perfect guy. The one who is no where near perfect. And knows i'm not either, but loves me anyway


ok so i guess that's it for tonight. i have been writing forever now!!! hahaha. still kinda emo but i will be good in the morning with a shopping trip. at least i got to spend some time with my funky prince.

Smile Princess' Day 7/2/08

SOOOO!!!! HOW IS YOU! FIRST REAL POST ON THIS SITE...HMMM..WHERE TO START. I AM BORED. THAT'S ALL REALLY. I'M AT MY SISTER'S HOUSE. YOU KNOW MY SISTER RIGHT. CRAZY PRINCESS...YEAH THATS HER. OK SO WE JUST ATE RIGHT NOW. I WAS FORCED. SO THIS FRIDAY IS UNICORN'S 19TH B-DAY. THEN MY B-DAY IS COMING UP ON JULY 12. THEN ICE'S ON AUGUST 21ST. SO MANY B-DAYS!!!!! I AM THE ONLY ONE HAVING A PARTY THOUGH. HAHAHHA. OK ANYWAY I AM UBER TIRED. I AM A SENIOR AT WORKMAN HIGH N I AM CURRENTLY TORTURING MYSELF WITH SUMMER SCHOOL. I AM TAKING CIVICS AND ECON AND I SWEAR IT ON MY LIFE THAT THE TEACHER IS IN LOVE WITH ME. EVERYTIME SHE SEES ME SHE WANTS ME TO ANSWER ALL QUESTIONS AND CORRECT PAPERS. NAKAKALOKA!!!! OH EM GEEEE!!!! SO BALIW SHA. D KO SHA TYPE. MASHADO SHA MATANDA. MWAHAHHAHA. I JUST FOUND THIS FUNKY QUOTE ONLINE. HERE IT IS:
To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down.
CONFUSING RIGHT!!! HAHA. IT WAS CUTE THOUGH. I REALLY LIKE QUOTES AS YOU MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE NOTICED FROM THE OLD POSTS ON GEOCITIES. YEA. ITS FUNKY. QUOTES JUST MAKE SENSE! HAHA. I'M WEIRD. OK SO ANYWAY. I AM CONFUSED. OK SO I GUESS THAT IS ALL. I AM GOING TO KICK BACK HERE N SLEEP. I THINK. GRRR. HAHAH